My reason? I just can't bear the awkwardness.
First of all, the awkwardness of not being recognized by those I sat in a classroom with during those years of figuring ourselves out. I can feel my cheeks flushing now. Secondly, the awkwardness of trying to convince someone, that although they have no recollection of me, that I did exist, and did walk across the same platform with them on graduation night.
Don't get me wrong, I had a group of friends, but I pretty much stayed in that group where I felt safe and accepted, too insecure to reach beyond those borders. Obsessed with my own teenage awkwardness, I just wanted to blend in with my surroundings and not stand out too much.
I was just fine with being unseen.
But now, being unseen is one of the many things the enemy uses in attempts to discourage me. There's something about having to convince someone that should know who you are that you really did exist that brings all of the insecurities and feelings of insignificance rushing to the forefront of my mind. It hurts your heart for someone to look at you with that blank face, shake their head in confusion, and say, "I don't remember you."
Never seen, never remembered.
Friend, are you feeling insignificant and unseen?
There's a woman in Genesis who found herself feeling those same emotions. Her name was Hagar and you can read her story in Genesis 16. Hagar was pushed out, rejected. She had been treated as if she were an insignificant person and was in the wilderness alone and pregnant.
Our merciful God saw her there in that wilderness and met with her. Hagar realized from her encounter with the angel of the Lord that she was significant and had been seen by Him.
Here's a significant truth you can use to counter the insignificance, spoken from the mouth of Hagar:
She said, “You are the God who sees me.” She also said, “Have I truly seen the One who sees me?
God sees you.
And you are significant to the One that matters.
Lift your eyes and see Him, my friend. His eyes are on you. No awkward moments, just love.